Missy's Moments

*I read a blog post that so eloquently put words to so much of what I feel- this is an excerpt- I'll post the link at the bottom. I talk about her, not because I’m constantly living in pain. I’m not anymore, but in my world, this is my normal, and I’d rather live honestly and out loud. Joy, love, happiness, and gratefulness are my everyday, but so are death, loss, heartache, and grief. Even more so… ... I talk about her because I’m proud. I talk about her, because she deserves to be remembered. I talk about her, because even though she’s not physically with me, she’s never far from my mind. I talk about her, because she’s part of me, a part that I could never ignore or disown. I talk about her because I love her still, and I always will. Forever. Nothing will ever change that. This is my normal. I know it’s hard to understand, and maybe that’s okay. When it comes to loving her , I will not be silent or hide away, and the bottom line is that is okay, too. HERE ...

Edna Eagen age 87, passed away peacefully on December 19, 2016 at the Lake Ridge Care Center in Buffalo, MN. She was born December 4, 1929, in Audubon County, IA, west of Brayton. Edna was baptized and confirmed at the Oak Hill Lutheran Church. She graduated from Exira High School and married in 1948. She and her husband owned and operated a tavern in Hamlin, IA for several years prior to relocating to the Minneapolis, MN area in 1954. As an accomplished seamstress, she utilized her advanced skills at home for her family along with working at various alterations, clothing, and fabric stores. They continued to raise five children through that period and then moved to Buffalo, MN in 1969. Edna resided there for the remainder of her years, close to her good friends and family as she worked in various employment roles of retail and industrial businesses. After retiring in 1996, she focused a majority of her time visiting family, traveling, and crafting intricate crochet projects for fri...

This year has been by far one of the most difficult. The loss of now three beautiful humans from this side of heaven. My Aunt just 53 has been gone since July. Her children left with a void. The sting of her passing still fresh, time eases the pain but I am reminded again and again for her children life is forever different. Our sweet Brielle gone for 3 months tomorrow. She would have been 11 months old  today. I have reminders of her every where, literally everywhere , but those reminders keep close the love she brought to us. I know there will be a day where I will need to start to let that go but my prayer is that I will take all she gave me during her short time here and use it to benefit others. She deserves that and so much more. Yesterday Rick's mom passed after a 11 day illness. So different from Deborah and Brielle, She was ready, she longed for heaven, she got to see her family, friends and spend time with her loved ones, her 7 days in hospice was a formality while she...

I could name so much to be thankful for but mainly I'm just thankful. I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for friends both new and old. I am thankful for memories and time spent with my grand babies. I am thinking a lot about my sweet cousins today spending their first thanksgiving without my Aunt Deborah, I wish we could be together and share our Minnesota cold, our fun and a good hot dish with you. I'm thinking about the families with littles in the hospital and am praying that today n ot be a roller coaster of emotion but filled with memories of the time that is spent together. I'm thinking there are many entering this season with loss and I pray just like I have been ,that you be reminded daily of all that is, and be thankful that you had and all that was. I am thankful Brielle was with us and so wish we could snuggle with her. I am thankful for the grace that extends to me daily in a love so unmistakable from a Savior that really is the reason for it all. Hap...

Copied from Jordan: If roses grow in heaven, Lord please pick a bunch for me. Place them in my daughters arms and tell her they're from me.  Tell her I love and miss her, and when she turns to smile, place a kiss upon her cheek and hold her for awhile. Because remembering her is easy, I do it every day. But there's an ache within my heart, that will never go away. Brielle you've been gone for two months today, makes for a rough Monday. Watch over us, let us know you're here! We miss you sunshine! Love Daddy

Yesterday you would have been 9 months old, today marks a month you've been away from us. It's only been a month but yet it feels so long ago. I sat at your resting place yesterday and closed my eyes to imagine the touch of your soft head, the feel of your cheeks on my lips, your rolls and that mighty grip you gave. The amazingly funny looks you could give and that bigger than any obstacle sass you could send out. Many people don't realize your trach was supposed to keep us from hearing your voice but you managed to let that voice escape the last few weeks. Seems small but to us it was the most beautiful sound. As I sat I remembered all the wires. Countless needles and lines and sticks, the tie changes and dressing changes, and of course that stupid wound vac- all things necessary and all things you are freed from. Never again baby girl will you experience pain and you will forever breath deep. There is confront knowing you are safe and with Jesus and most of all knowing so...

Journal entry by Missy Eagen — 9/22/2016 We have been using Facebook as our means of providing updates. Over the last couple of days at least 2 friends have mentioned this was their source to hear how Brielle is doing. As I was reading the journals from those first months I was reminded once again of the strength Brielle showed, she hasn't lost the fight but her body could no longer keep up with it. Brielle is now with us in our hearts, we have etched her soft cheeks and fun looks in our minds and she will missed until that day in heaven we are reunited with her. ❤️️ (taken from cb)

Brielle Ann Heyer entered our hearts even before she entered the world on January 20,2016. She taught us very early on there was "our time" and then there was "Brielle time". What started as one of the scariest days turned into the first day of the fiercest most blessed journey we've been honored to take. Jordan and Beca were reminded again and again that Brielle was strong and determined and through her strength they became stronger. When days turned into months Brielle often brought her family together in the walls of a place that became all to familiar. Among those walls there are angels with skin, they loved Brielle when we couldn't, they loved on her, they loved on us, their care was never ending even after the end. Just after midnight September 21, 2016 at 8 months old Brielle felt fresh air, she got to breath it in as Jesus completely healed her. In the presence of all those who just wanted one thing... for Brielle to know she was loved. Brielle wil...

Our dearest Brielle- how do we even explain the ways you've impacted our lives. Sweet girl you are healed and safe in the arms of Jesus. We are heartbroken but it is only because of the great love you brought to us all. You are forever in our hearts. Brielle entered into the arms of Jesus at 12:39am, September 21st surrounded by family and in the arms of her Mommy and Daddy. 💕