Temporary

 

“Don’t worry this is just temporary”

Early on in life, at the wise old age of 22 I remember a mentor saying this to me.

I would call her in tears, over kids, over the opposite sex, over a job crisis, over dinner, over just about anything that happen to tip me over the edge that day and she would just simply listen and say.

“Hun this is just temporary- someday you will look back on this and if you still remember it you will have a better understanding and realize that what you are feeling today is not forever.”

Now certainly there are life circumstances when our feelings ease or change but yet still remain but for the most part I can say that looking back, especially over  parenting most of my emotional downs (and ups) didn’t last and we moved on to new days and new emotions.

There are a lot of labels in my life that have been temporary. An accident, abused, addicted, promiscuous, teen mom, single mom- all labels that brought with them feelings that didn’t feel so temporary. Feelings that felt like giant weights that held me down, kept me from experiencing life outside these temporary circumstances, kept me from experiencing a joy that was never meant to be temporary.

Well what  I didn’t know in those early years was that there is a God that has a love for me that is not temporary. A love that can’t be broken, A love I can’t sin my way out of it, it is for me, always has been and always will be.

My temporary labels began to be replaced with labels like Child of God, Daughter of the King, Redeemed, Forgiven, these labels bring a joy that carries me in and out of those temporary emotions, a peace that is not of myself but assures me I am OK, a love that is still at times overwhelming and always welcome.

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

Isaiah 43:1

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