Why I Talk About Her

*I read a blog post that so eloquently put words to so much of what I feel- this is an excerpt- I'll post the link at the bottom.


I talk about her, not because I’m constantly living in pain. I’m not anymore, but in my world, this is my normal, and I’d rather live honestly and out loud. Joy, love, happiness, and gratefulness are my everyday, but so are death, loss, heartache, and grief.


Even more so…
...
I talk about her because I’m proud.
I talk about her, because she deserves to be remembered.
I talk about her, because even though she’s not physically with me, she’s never far from my mind.
I talk about her, because she’s part of me, a part that I could never ignore or disown.
I talk about her because I love her still, and I always will. Forever. Nothing will ever change that.
This is my normal. I know it’s hard to understand, and maybe that’s okay. When it comes to loving her , I will not be silent or hide away, and the bottom line is that is okay, too.


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